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an empty space, a glowing one

May 17, 2012

it’s nearly 100 days now

his passing has left an empty space

how much has moved on

how much has not

i’m not so sure

you never know what life throws at you

somnetimes it’s just haphazard

not always in your control

there are plans and there are surprises

you have to deal with it, make the best of it

at your own time, in your own way

accept it, embrace it if you can

“float like a cannonball”

heavy but feel light

there’s substance but also buoyancy

make yourself float, suspend in the air

come down when you need to

he was full of life, happy, humorous, and well-loved

this is what he’s left behind for us

when all’s gone, perhaps what one leaves behind is a legacy

footsteps to follow

and it’s with his spirit

that helps to ignite this empty space

in the heart

set it aglow

lead us forward

when five fingers on a palm become four

the four find unity and inner strength to become

stronger even

empty spaces here and there

or a huge empty space in fact

but it’s a glowing one

light shines through

and it is with this empty space

that allows us to be filled again

to grow

to move forward

litted


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love & gratitude

April 23, 2012

beyond what can be said in words…

beyond what can be done in action…

beyond boundary… beyond time…

“thank you” is a massive understatement of what my heart hopes to express


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give me a second more

March 25, 2012

if only for a short glimpse

just to say one more word

will you spare me a second more

he woke suddenly in my dream

he was alive, it felt real, it was real

i felt it was real

i got what i wished for

i said that was all i wished for

but i realised

it wasn’t about that second more

but everything that had come before it

still i felt

it was a second too short

give me a second more

will you

please

a second more


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No Response 没有反应的反应

January 15, 2012

Sometimes the best response is no response at all.

有时没有反应的反应是最好的反应。


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真正拥有 to have truly owned

December 22, 2011

“当你拥有的时候,你已经开始的在失去。”

“当你不再害怕失去, 你就真正拥有了。”

爱情是这样, 事业是这样, 名气是这样, 人生也是这样。

“When you own something, you are already beginning to lose it.”

“When you no longer fear losing, that’s when you have truly owned.”

Love’s like that, career’s like that, fame’s like that, life’s like that too.


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Who’s the Better Actor?

October 26, 2011

“This wide and universal theatre

presents more woeful pageants than the scene

Wherein we play in.

All the world’s a stage,

And all the men and women merely players.

They have their exits and their entrances,

And one man in his time plays many parts.”

– Shakespeare, William. As You Like It.

Is it of hypocrisy and lies, masks and facades, necessary editions and pretences, or is it of rawness and realness, or a relative lack of control and edition?

Who’s the better actor? I wonder. The one who puts everything on his face or the one who puts nothing on his face? Now you tell me.


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乌龟赛跑 The Tortoise’s Race

October 13, 2011

乌龟赛跑+兔子赛跑=龟兔赛跑

The Tortoise’s Race + The Hare’s Race = The Tortoise and Hare Race

就这么简单, 你看不到吗?

It’s that simple, can’t you see it?

乌龟赛跑不就是乌龟赛跑吗?

Can’t it be the tortoise’s race?

乌龟赛跑是以乌龟的身份和立场出席赛跑; 龟兔赛跑是以旁观者的身份和立场观看赛跑。

The tortoise’s race is first-person narrative and you participate; the tortoise and hare race is third-person narrative and you’re a spectator.

我又没说错,为什么你硬要听错, 又关语言什么事?

If I meant it this way, why must you listen to it your way, and what has language got to do with it?

为什么要给自己设定小框框? =)

Why do you lock yourself inside the box? =)


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It’s about Heartbeat, I Think.

October 6, 2011

I’m really glad to have caught up with a group of friends today. It made me realise actually we all have our own sets of problems, be it with relationships or at work, big or small, and that, we are all not alone. Whatever individual bad experience you have had is not anything extraordinarily bad and which sets you apart from everyone else but to put it in perspective and in place, a bad human emotion, phase or experience which you share with many others before you and surely too, many to come, and if any consolation at all, that many before have traversed down the exact same path and felt the exact same emotion that you now feel, so there’s sort of a collective empathy so to speak if that’s any help at all. You’re not the only flickering or dimming star out there in the vast, dark night sky; there are thousands and millions like yourself, each feeling alone and preoccupied with the circumstance in front of them and that’s all they can see; just keep the light, however dim or flickering, because circumstance will change and things will take a turn every once in a while. I have been feeling like a block of wood for some time, as if washed out ashore, devoid of emotion or scared of it, lacking any inspiration, hence I haven’t been writing, because there seems to be absolutely nothing inside, as much as I have stared at the screen many times and tried to force or churn something out, to find an outlet. It’s been a rollercoaster of a ride, a huge paradox, a big enigma, it could be a neverending argument, a complicated dilemma, a seemingly irreconcileable conflict…

At the end of the day, what’s all these about? “Much Ado about Nothing”? “Love’s Labour’s Lost”? What do we make of it all? What sense? Life really should be easier and happier, isn’t it? Well, at least we should all agree that we deserve that little bit more, of happiness, no? Is life really about the process and not the destination? But of course right? Cos there’s no destination to speak of, non-religiously speaking? Life’s really about heartbeat, I think, whatever the process is, whether it’s smooth or filled with bumps and pitfalls, whether it’s improving or spiralling out of control, or even it seems to have come to a standstill, like a body of dead water. It doesn’t matter each time it’s happiness or misery or anger or disappointment or fear or pain or torture or gain or loss or nonchalance or calmness or confusion or mayhem or everything or nothing at all, there’s a heartbeat, however faint, fast or slow or to what rhythm or song, it keeps beating, like a live clockwork, keeps you alive. Never lose that heartbeat, constantly listen to it, feel it, what keeps it beating. When everyday’s a choice… Yes, easier said than done, we all know that, I know that too… But you can do it, I’m sure, you know it too. We all can.


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Countdown: Day 5

September 7, 2011

“A countdown can fly past, or it could feel like a lifetime.”

Nonetheless, the countdown has begun.

It’s in sight, finally.

It’s day 5.

.


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meant to be

August 1, 2011

it almost seems that

if it’s meant to be,

all things in the universe conspire to get you there

and if it’s not,

all things in the universe conspire to not get you there.

a lot of times in life, it is so.

i tend to believe it’s meant to be,

the path taken.


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4D5N Singapore

July 29, 2011

It’s strange to go on a holiday in your own country, how often do you do that? 4D5N Singapore. When you’ve been away for a while and will be away for a while more.

Familiar yet estranged at the same time, you learn to see the everyday things and routine that you do in a more beautiful light, and you learn to appreciate them, and be grateful for them.

Apart from, needless to say, family and my favourite people…

I miss driving my car, wherever, it will take me, therapeutic, the comfort of being in the driver’s seat, the liberty and spontaneity to do so, sometimes top down and wind in my face.

I miss playing soccer with the usual group, the partnership, the freedom of expression and play, the happiness of a child at the playground.

I miss sleeping in my own bed, like most would, tucked in, pampered, safe, and I miss showering in my own bathroom, most myself.

I miss jogging, a proper path, at the beach, to sweat it out, and I miss going to the gym, not that I loved it before or love it now.

I miss the sights and smells, the clean roads.

I miss opening the house lock.

I miss the routine and the lifestyle.

I miss writing, the inspiration to write.

It’s not so far away now…

I look forward to my own homecoming.

Welcome home soon =)


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Consistency in Character

July 26, 2011

It is important to have Consistency of Character in acting.

But more so, it is important to have Consistency in Character in real life.

Both would lend you Credibility and Respect.

Our worldly education has probably conditioned us to vary our speech, action, and treatment of others dependent on or according to the social position, status, and wealth of the person, or how advantageous the person is to us, but “just because it is doesn’t mean it should be”. There are two common Chinese expressions: “Pray to who’s above and step on those below”; and “See a ghost, speak its language; see a man, speak his language”. Some would say or see it as adaptability and survival; I say it’s simply flawed and Inconsistency in Character.

You do not say one thing and do another; you do not do one thing and say another. You do not speak sweetly, do more, or act better just because the person is more helpful or useful to you but because you want to. That’s Consistency in Character for you. How could inconsistency in character be attributed as a strength in the form of adaptability and survival skill? How could an essential trait like consistency in character be blurred, overlooked and undermined through time and in our society today? That’s something I find hard to understand or accept. Easier said than done perhaps, but Consistency in Character is definitely more admirable and worthy of respect, coated in gold.

Some of our worldly ideas and concepts, those imparted to us, those we adhere to as truth and fact, those we don’t even need to think about, may be essentially flawed and susceptible. This is just one of them, in serious need of some Deconstruction, and this deconstruction begins and takes place in your Consciousness.


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