Seeing you again

has brought back for me

Memories I Thought I Had Lost.

So much has changed & so much has taken place

So much too has remained & stayed the same

& always will do.

Spaces & gaps in between

Amidst our because vast hence limited memories.

Memories gained & memories thought lost

Only to come back ever so vividly

Like we had never left the old place.

Nearly ten years now

Felt like never again

Suddenly like yesterday just passed.

“Yesterday once once” is a cliche.

But it’s not yesterday;

it’s today.

“Today once more”

How much we wish & wish

for “once more” “once more”.

Live & relive & live.

Thank you for making the pages

Come alive again

If only for that second, that One Single Moment

Then again to go back into the page.

Because “Life’s a book, & usually opened in the middle.”

Thank you

for the kindness

& for the generosityof spirit.

It was warm

like the spring baths

Too warm even

But it felt good

When  there is no reason for someone to treat you so good

but they do,

Something takes place in the heart.

& also in the brain.

Because your mindset is changed

Your perspective changes again.

Like a road trip

Take turns to drive

Parts of it you remember;

parts of it you don’t

No, life is not in pieces but as a whole.

My two friends, nearly “childhood” friends.

One with three younger brothers, chased out of home, built a business on his own, independent,

now happily married with a cosy home.

One nearly lost his life to illness, an affable person with a good heart, handling his family business,

now happily married to Shizu-san with a lovable son by the name of Taito.

These ten years I thought had gone missing.

They were surprised too how much had taken place for me.

Lost & found, contact established.

That One Single Moment, how much you’d give.

Because you never expected you’d meet them again.

Seeing you again

has brought back for me

Memories I Actually Never Lost.

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There is no one way to lead your life.

There is no dead end.

Only because we have become accustomed to the life we had been presented and then chosen.

But the way we have chosen for ourselves is a habit, the path we have preferred.

When one door closes, another opens.

Weeds can grow in many places.

When they can see their strengths as weeds.

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I was on the plane when I wrote this on a postcard.

Two days back in Gamagori, Japan, when I was sleeping, I dreamt that something bad happened to my mother back in Singapore. I woke up, shocked, had a bad feeling, wanted to call home immediately, felt so real, checked my phone, then reassured myself that nothing will go wrong.

It was the first time I experienced the real feeling of a heartsink, I think.

Others were close; shock, panic, disappointment, lost, heart speeding, but not a heartsink.

Deep down inside, I know that nothing will happen to her.

Faith.

& so I didn’t call.

I know that this feeling of a heartsink will be overwhelmed by the sight of my mother at the arrival hall behind the glass panel waiting for me to fetch me home later.

Everything will fall back into place, I’m sure.

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“has to be able to:

Cook well.

Do housework.

Give birth to babies for me.”

My Japanese friend laughed.

“Typical MCP,” I know, haha.

My friend said, “No rah, no more Singapore girl rike that. Japanese girl, also don’t have rah.”

Waving his hands, waiving off the idea.

“How? How?” I exclaimed, semi-disillusioned, just rike I was semi-joking rah.

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there will always be bias but the problem is when you’re so obviously biased in your judgement, you should really stop trying to influence or overshadow others with your blatant bias, or favouritism, whatever you call it. thank you.

it has always been my intention to write my blog in a way that it is neither a re-ferral nor a re-action to anyone or anything, and it will continue to be so but i regret that this entry should be so.

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“If you want a bourgeois existence, you shouldn’t be an actor. You’re in the wrong profession.” – Uta Hagen.

“How true,” I thought, as I realised for myself today, but not as if I didn’t already know. By “bourgeois existence”, I mean “middle class or middle-upper class”.

“Where’s my bourgeois existence?” proletariatly speaking.

Speak of the irony of looking for a “bourgeois existence”.

Look, I’m not even looking for a “bourgeois existence”; I’m merely looking for a “free-r, more rightful existence, and less cheap”. Get it?

Frankly speaking, and straight-faced. Without pessimism, negativity, or disillusionment. Just some anger, for what’s not right, for a rightful existence.

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“By right…”

“But what if it’s by left?”

Hmm…

Some go by left but I still hope to go by right.

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Some lies are necessary.

Most lies are not.

When you tell an unnecessary lie or deliberately create an impression of someone you are not, it would most probably backfire and come back to haunt you.

And the bubble will burst.

Because everything inside was Air.

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“When you blow a bubble too big for yourself, the bubble will burst.”

Only a matter of time.

Sooner or later.

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Take success lightly; take failure lightly. Take happiness lightly; take sadness lightly. Take praise lightly; take criticism lightly. Take good things lightly; take bad things lightly. Take achievement lightly; take fame lightly; take recognition lightly. Take scolding lightly; take punishment lightly; take stumble lightly.

Take the person who said you look good today lightly; take the person who said you seem to have put on weight lightly. But it’s alright to take the former a little more seriously than the latter, I think.

Take the person who stepped on your toes lightly; take the person who cut into your lane lightly; take the person talking behind your back lightly.

Taking things lightly doesn’t mean that you don’t care; it just means that you take things a little less seriously than what you make them to be.

Take things lightly. But never take your loved ones lightly. And more importantly, never take yourself lightly. Because if you take yourself lightly, who’s going to take you seriously? No one’s going to take you seriously.

So never take yourself lightly.

But not too seriously too lah. Not a moral lesson.

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In the entertainment industry…

Is he the playboy or the playtoy?

player or plaything

subject or object

master or slave

coloniser or colonised

in control or controlled

autonomous or dependent

Both. playboy and playtoy.

All of the above.

Either way, he’s going to command himself with as much respect, dignity, and pride.

Either way, he’s entitled to as much respect, dignity, and pride.

Not content to Just Play Along.

He wants to Just Play.

Is that a contradiction or a reconciliation?

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叭叭没有错。

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